Monday, March 29, 2010

p.s.

I want to apologize to my fans out there who expected to see me this weekend for my live shows on livejasmin.com. Between my laptop and camera being in the shop all weekend and the tire blowout, I was unable to setup the show, let alone stream it with any proper equipment. The good news is I am back on schedule this week... Friday night at 3am and Sunday afternoon at 3pm. So cocks up, lube out and get ready to shoot!

Stranded!!!

I was stuck in the middle of Ghettosville for 5 hours today... how awesome is that?!?!? I had a lot of time, however, to think about porn and how much I love it. Having gone from almost quitting because of how difficult the shoots were, to fully enjoying and already saddened at the thought of the short life span of a porn career, I really have come full circle. I love my job! It is a lot of work, reputation, upkeep, social networking and being able to perform at the drop of a dime... but with all of the challenges aside, I am happy happy happy!

Part of that reason is because of my guardian angel (one of several) Ron Hull. His suicide was a traumatic moment in my life that was a catalyst for the sudden change in paths my life made about 2 years ago. The last year was the worst of my life.... BUT it taught me so much about how to live life and do for myself and to take a chance without pre-planning. It lead me to take a chance on trying the porn industry and put aside other peoples' opinions and just listen to my own voice. I stopped trying to please others, stopped concerning myself with what others will think of me, took hold of making choices for myself for the first time in my life and decided this is what I need to do.

Let me tell you, the liberation I have felt from FINALLY taking control of myself and my path in life was exhilarating, to say the least. The weight of the world was lifted from my shoulders after 30 years. I am still a stress-case, I still over-analyze, I still consider the repercussions and benefits of the choices I make, but now I do it for me and the concept turned into practice makes so much more sense. We can understand concepts and ideas and theories but until it is put into practice we have not truly mastered or even grasped the true meaning behind the words. I get it now... it is not about selfishness or about ignoring the needs of others. I used to put everyone else's needs before my own. Then I was advised, repeatedly, to take care of myself first otherwise you will be of no use to anyone else. SO I took care of my needs and sort of dis-associated from the people I love because I was absent of availability and of giving to them. So I essentially went from 1 extreme to the other without truly grasping the meaning of the advice. When I learned to finally let go of everyone else's views of myself and of the world and simply listened to my own heart and head, I realized that I do have a voice, that I do want to do things for me instead of following the illusion of a path chosen for me by a society intent upon forcing the "American Dream" upon us as the ultimate goal in life and those that do not achieve it are failures. That what I want is not necessarily what others want, especially in a straight-based culture that does not understand gay culture. I know what I want and I went out and got it. It may not be what others would want for me... but that doesn't matter anymore... it is what I want! And now that I have figured out what I want for myself and not struggling internally to find that answer of what do I want out of life, I can determine the time I need for myself to achieve my goals, and what time I can make available for those that I love so we can share and do for each other and benefit from a relationship where both parties are gaining from it and I can be present for them without sacrificing myself or my needs to do it.
Okay, so there is always a silver lining to every situation.. even a flat tire in Ghettosville. Time to reflect and ponder and essentially meditate to the mind and soul some good.

Also, I chose not to edit, revise or even re-read this message before posting because I want it as raw and unfiltered as possible to capture the train of thought I had in the moment. Having been a literature major and a part-time writer/poet, this form of expression is just one of many I enjoy toying with just to see what sort of impact it might have in engaging the reader and translating my thoughts to them as clearly and impactful as possible.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

SO MUCH TO SAY, SO LITTLE SPACE TO WRITE...








Howdy folks, here we are again, chatting about things, little and big, important and trivial, funny and not so funny. Let's begin with last Friday's live show on livejasmin.com. It was a learning experience, for sure. I start in the free chat room and whenever someone wants a private show, I am automatically ripped away from the chat room into the private room, where I can finally be more fun and show off my various "talents. It's a fast transition because I want to give the people their money's worth for their show but don't know when it is coming. I also have to learn to manage multiple privates as well... tougher than it sounds, I assure you. By the end, I could finally relax and just have fun but getting the system down was a task. I have made a verbal commitment to Hot House and livejasmin to do a couple weekly shows... Friday late night @ 3am and Sunday afternoon at 3pm. This is my first double performance week so come by, support your pal Craig, flirt and have fun with me cuz that's really what I want to make these shows all about!!!


Next, I know we all like free and we don't want to pay for things easily accessible to us, however I would ask everyone to please consider buying porn once in a while instead of pirating free copies. It is impacting the industry much worse than you realize. At this rate, there won't be much of an industry left if we all don't chip in our fair share to keep adult films in production. I am buying my porn and I work at these companies! I get that buying every porn is asking a little much but maybe support your favorite studio or actor(s) and at least buy their movies??? There is a lot of turmoil behind the scenes with most major companies and we are trying to stay afloat. We need your help!Third, I love my fettish people and am starting to put together a collection of jocks, underwear, movie set props, etc., that the hardcore, diehard porn fans and jock fettish lovers will truly enjoy. I was recently introduced to naughtybids.com where I can sell memorbilia, underwear, jocks, props from the set, etc. just like an ebay auction! The only problem is I am not allowed to advertise anything relating to used, sweaty, cum-covered, pissed-on, lube-stained clothes of any kind or I will be automatically shut down. So, I will advertise as they want me to but I guarantee that will not be the case. You can always ask me via email what condition the items are in. I can tailor it to your wants pretty easily. My email for that is craigreynolds69@gmail.com. I am in the process of creating auctions now under screenname craigreynolds69. So check out my auctions if you get the chance.


Finally, I understand I am new to the adult film industry and I definitely have a ways to go to develop a career path worthy of the greats... however it SUCKS not getting nominated for anything... it's still too soon and I didn't have enough material released at the time entries were submitted... but STILL! I figured at least the Josh West, Ross Hurston, Craig (me) threeway in Reckless 2 would get a nomination for best 3way at the Grabbys... but no... it was not meant to be. I am exciteds for Kyle King, Steven Scarborough, Vince Ferelli, Ethan Wolfe and my other friends who did get nominations... they all earned it. Likewise, Reckless is up for several nominations!!! So at least I have something to do with.... well, ANYTHING! Again, I am being sarcastic and snarky because that's how I am, so please don't take this ranting seriously. Anyway, next year I am taking home Newcomer of the Year, Best Threeway, and 1 more for Video of the Year. Just as Kathy Griffin perservered and finally took home her emmys, I will one day get mine! Check out the nominees for the GRABBYS.



Another notable topic, Hot House Backroom just released the first scene of our new movie entitled Sanctuary (Part 1 of 2)... with yours truly making his 3rd movie cover!!! If you know me, you are aware I am about as humble as they come. I always saw myself as an ugly duckling growing up and focused on academics and sports throughout my school career. It wasn't until my late teens and early 20's I started to realize that I seem to have something that attracts people to me... and not until the last year or so that I have come to embrace the fact that I am not that ugly duckling anymore. That being said, I am so excited and flattered to make even 1... let alone 3... movie covers!!! This goes beyond the visions I had of how far I would realistically go in this industry.

I have a talent of sabotaging myself from succeeding because honestly I have never felt confident enough within myself to be able to adequately handle the long-term responsibility of success... which requires more than hard work and dedication... it is a commitment to maintaining such a high standard indefinitely . I typcally function as peaks and valleys; steady and even pacing are not normally areas where I accel. I will, oftentimes, work my ass off to accomplish something until I burn myself out and no longer have an interest in the task.
Anyway, I typically steer clear of anything that I am not confident I will succeed at. I am an Aquarius, I don't deal well with criticism and losing. This time, however, I decided just to try, give it my best shot and if worse came to worst, I would simply walk away. What happened instead, to my great relief, was Steven Scarborough and the Hot House crew. I began enjoying the job, enjoying the friendships, enjoying the work environment, and most of all I enjoyed the support and guidance I received from everyone, mostly our fearless leader, Big Boss Man (Steven). My castmates have all been AWESOME and along with their help and direction during scenes, I actually became someone worth their time and investment... and I actually even started to believe it myself!
It is a new thing to feel legitimate confidence instead of overcompensating pride to cover my insecurities or to use humor to laugh off compliments from people I didn't believe about myself. It's new, it's got me a bit on the defense waiting for the other shoe to drop, but this time I just might let things run their course as they were meant to be, hand over control to powers beyond me (yes I am a passive control freak), and trust in the path laid out for me.... for better or for worse.

So yes, that long-ass story had a point... I am happy about the movie cover! It is a hot leather and bondage movie and I can't WAIT for you all to see where they set me up in this movie! Again, I always hope to bring you something new, interesting, innovating, something you haven't seen before because porn can get very repetitive and interest and attention spans are not kept by doing the same ol' thing over and over again. Any recommendations?


Alright, I have spent many many hours designing what will be my third version of a webpage, so please check in on it at http://craigreynoldsxxx.com/ or .net... depending on which site works out the best with uploads. Also reminder that Friday at 3am and Sunday at 3pm each week will be my live shows on livejasmin.com. Many more things are coming soon so stay tuned, read Roma's Hot Blog for current news and BUY HOT HOUSE DVD's!!!! It's is top quality work that will keep you cumming and pre-cumming for years! "That's all I have to say about that"- Forrest Gump

Thursday, March 18, 2010

(Archive from 2/27/10) Wednesday Night LIVE a success while on Friday, go-go dancers face off against burlesque performers at Versus...

This week was another busy week which started off with my very first solo scene! I performed on Hot House Backroom LIVE... and they are not kidding. If you have an accident, it's on film. If you are nervous and stutter and at a loss for words or direction, too bad. There is no CUT!

Anyone who knows me can easily confirm my notable degree of anxiety and social anxiety. I over-process and get stuck in my head. It feeds on itself til I manifest physical reactions to it. I am doing better but far from ideal when you are getting down and dirty with every inch of you exposed and being recorded to be mass-produced and watched by people all over the world... aand you have to end with a cum shot. So the pressure is always on to perform and bring your A game. I thought about what the crew would think about me if I delayed wrap of a shoot because I couldn't get off. That would almost prevent me from getting off! AAAHHH!

Anyway, I started the show nervous and kind of throwing my limbs around to fill up space (which makes no sense), no direction for what I want to bring to the show and five minutes to pull it together. Spontaneity is not a forte of mine. I need to think and plan out each step before proceeding. But I jumped in, slipped a little, but then the switch flipped and I was shoving every toy they could find by the end of the show. I even got my cum shot! Granted, we went over by 5 minutes and I worked every fiber of my being to do it... but it was a big victory for me. Ii was happy, the studio was happy... happy happy happy.

Soon friday, after an emotionally-draining day of work and events, I was booked to dance at the Lookout for Jeff Johnson's new Friday night party called Versus. It is a cool concept that

Monday, March 15, 2010

It's Official! BOOT-Y CAMP is coming...

I have submitted my resignation at Gold's Gym in order to pursue a new business venture. Boot-y camp is similar in style to any armed services boot camp... but way more fun! It is full body, functional, strength and endurance training all wrapped into one action-packed hour. I love to train this way and now I will have the space and control to do it my way!!! There are referral programs to earn members free sessions, cost is way cheaper than personal training costs, you can do it with friends, all you have to do is show up and be ready to work!
I am excited and I know y'all will enjoy it. Specifics to be released SOON! This will be up and running within a month.

Friday, March 12, 2010

BEHIND THE SCENES


I was fortunate enough to get the permission from the man himself (Steven Scarborough) to take a little footage behind the scenes of our latest movie due out later this year. I was partnered with Tyler Saint and the greatest crew I know to produce another HOTHOTHOT movie the way Hot House knows how to do. Paying attention to detail and scrutinizing how best to satisfy our fans, we spent the day filming, adjusting, and busting our balls to make it all look good! That being said, we don't want to lose the intimacy and genuine energy between the models, so we are changing it up and leaving more of the real action in... flaws and all. For example, Tyler fucks me so hard I fall to the floor and kiss his boots in gratitude and appreciation... that was not acting for the camera... that was just a real moment in time and it looks hot!


We all enjoy the amateur stuff because it is real... well Steven (our valiant leader) recognizes this and is working to deconstruct the traditional porn formula and get back to the basics. I admire his ability to adapt and change with the times and recognize what the people want. Likewise, I am not a very good actor, so what you see on camera is pretty much what you get in real life (minus the extra dialogue I am forced to come up with to keep the audial interest of the audience). I cannot turn my performer switch on and off... it is all completely integrated. So this new style and way of thinking suits me well and I am excited that I could potentially help revolutionize the porn industry by making these changes in format. It is nothing new and I am only a small piece of the puzzle, but it is exciting to be a fan and a performer and witnessing the merge of the two worlds to find common ground that satisfies everyone!


So check out the clips. I was able to show Taylor, Paul and Richard (our lighting, camera and set guys), Joe (our on-set still image photographer on-set) and myself with a little goofy commentary. This is just a little glimpse into a world that mystifies many so you can see what it is truly like to see on-set for filming. Oh, and as a side note to those that do not know me, I have major social anxiety and you will notice my stutters and nerves a bit when I talk. Hopefully you will endearing, not annoying. Again, just keeping it real.

VERSION 2.0, PAGE 1





So in my attempt to understand all things electronic and Internet-connected, I managed to lose my first blog page. so we will start over with a new blog! I will start back as far as I can recall last leaving off and move on from there.

A couple weeks ago, I was featured on hot house backroom live, where I did a pretty hot solo dildo show! almost took the fisting toy, got both heads of the double-headed dildo in, plus various other toys and tricks. It became an instructional how-to video for the amatuer toy players out there. I get a thrill from exposing people to new sexual experiences and liberating them. The moment you see that expression of bewilderment and pleasure mixed with confusion is matched by non other. I see the light switch flip on and have started another person down the road of sexual discovery!



Anyone interested in seeing the archive of my show or any Hot House live show can go here.




I also moved a couple weeks ago, which has been an unexpected (and time-consuming) project to deal with. It has taken me away from my current website and blog projects, but I am back on track and hoping to keep you in the loop on a regular basis.




MISSION STATEMENT








I mentioned this previously in my first blog version but several people keep asking about it so I should re-address what I am Other than simply sharing my views and opinion, like lmillions of others are doing, I want to try and bring a unique element to my blog and allow porn fans get a backstage look in on what life is like on the inside of the industry. Many are curious, even mystified, and I am happy to remove the blinders and answer the questions so that the fans can feel more informed about what they watch and gives the industry more human qualities and extinguish some falsities improperly associated with porn production. For example, I was pleasantly surprised by the professional atmosphere at the studios... everyone is nice an funny and easy to get along with. Granted, it deals with sex and every business has its flaws, but everyone isn't drugged out and fucking freely across the floor. We are all there for a job, to work hard and produce good qualitymovies that satisfy the exhibitionist inside.

I felt the industry was an untouchable force, and when I received a golden ticket to the magic island, I quickly realized the assumptions I made, both good and bad, were essentially absent. Granted a repuation stems from somewhere, but the larger studios really do try to maintain a professional atmosphere because they are an easy target, which is all the more reason to keep their noses clean.



Anyway, aside from the political and social commentary I could go on about, that isn't hot, it isn't why I got into porn, I left my soapbox at home, and I think my fans would be much more interested in pictures and movies... so I will try and include a fair amount. my website... http://craigreynoldsxxx.net/ is a better choice for finding images and links to new movies. In the meantime, here are couple